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What Honestly Happened? Eridan x Depressed!Reader

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(TRIGGER WARNINGS:#DEPRESSION #IMPLIED CUTTING #BLOOD #BIRTHDAYS #FUCK FISH PUNS #SWEARING #CRYING #YELLING #SUICIDE #DREAMS #BREAKFAST)


I decide to gently trace the edge of his fins.

They wiggled a bit at the soft touch of my fingers, causing me to giggle. I looked across the room to the rounded window that has a perfect view of the lake the Royal blood usually lives in but he also had a hive on land that isnt used very often. I walked to the mentioned hole and looked out to the sea, I glanced back at the sleeping water-dweller before exiting the room and walking out to the living room to get shoes on.Although I didnt need the shoes I always wear them when I do this, Im not sure why though. Its just a habit I suppose. 

I slipped out the door and on to the sand, looking up at the moon I smiled a bit. The moon shine from the light of the sun, rather than its own because it does not have a light to call its own. So it barrows from its friend the sun. I walked to the shore were I stared at the still water's moon reflection. The water too, barrows a visibility from its friends: the Sun, Moon and Sky. I sighed and sat down, some days I feel like the water, some I feel like the moon, I almost never feel like the sun anymore.

My problems just seem the be creeping up on me faster and faster, like the antagonist in a video game. Ive been really in the dumps recently but my facade it kept up even in the hardest of times. Although its kept up its still shattering slowly, Im slipping up and others have been catching on. Im scared. Very scared. What will they do if they find out the truth? Will they leave like all the others? What would Eridan do? Would he break up with me?  I shook my head, pooled some water in my hands before splashing myself in the face. Its was salt water but I didnt care at the moment.

I ignored the salty liquid dropping off my chin as my attention was drawn to the sky, trying to block out those thoughts. I worry about it when the time comes they find out. Though they wont ever find out so there will be no problems and no need to contemplate that! The loud crashing of waves over whelmed the sound of my demons slowly but surely drowning them out completely. Im not sure what happened after that although I do remember the sent of under cooked fish and a warm blanket like cloth being wrapped around me.

When I woke up I found myself in the living room wrapped up in Eridan's cape upon the couch. I blinked a few times while looking around to find Eridan passing in front of the Tv. I shifted myself and slid of the soft cushions silently landing on the floor before walking up behind him and hugging him. "What are you passing for?" He jumped a bit, startled.
"Ah-- wwhen did you wwake up?"
"Just know." a relived sigh escaped his black lips.
"Good, followw me." He started off in the direction of the kitchen, I followed obediently.
"What were you passing for?" He proceeded to avoid the question.
"I thought we could some of your landwweller breakfest. Wwe havvent in a wwhile." I decided to drop it,
"Aha! You do like 'landwweller' food!" I mimicked.
"I nevver said that!"
"You implied it~"
"Wwhatevver." I hugged him.
"Dont worry about it! Lets just do this!" He grinned at me and helped me get what we needed to make the (F/B/F).

We cooked and ate, although we did make a huge mess of the kitchen. I slipped my plate into the sink and slipped into the bathroom were the cleaning supplies were kept, remembering the short conversation I had with myself. Shaking my head I slipped out with what we needed and grabbed two sponges from under the sink. I handed one to him with a smirk, "The one to clean the mot of it up properly wins, the winner chooses what they want although it can only be one thing!"

Much to my surprise Eridan in fact won, but he never said what he wanted.

By noon we were summoned over to Sollux's place for a party Feferi was hosting for Cod knows why. Hell why was it even starting so damn early! Everyone was there though so I suppose it was more of a get together than party. But there was a hoe ton of booze(Roxy probably) and Faygo (Gamzee definitely Gamgam) so this was going drunk fast. Even Karkat got intoxicated by midnight! A lot of trolls got high too, but how they all managed this I didnt know. What I didnt know would be my greatest down fall here though as I was the only "sober" one by the end of the night.

Everyone was too neatly organized when people began to pass out around 5 am. Though I was far too sleepy to really notice this. I passed out standing against a wall and awoke in the same position 4 hours later. I awoke because of a nightmare I was having...

SAID NIGHTMARE WENT LIKE THIS:

I was walking down the street flower petals flew around me in a gentle breeze, before long I was in front of Eridans land-hive. The door had violet blood on the nob making it hard to turn but I managed to open it anyway. There was a deep voiced wailing coming from the far side of the housing building. As I got closer to the crying I found more and more copious amounts of violet blood. For what ever reason none of it fazed me, like I had grown accustomed to it. Even though I only knew one person with this color blood: Eridan.

Theres no way this could be his blood though hes alive and well at Solluxs house. Come to think wasnt I there before too? Why was I here now? I dont ever remember leaving his hive at any point durin the.... the ... what was that it was called? Funeral? No, it was more festive. Wedding? No, not festive enough. I stopped worrying about it, it didnt really seem to matter anymore anyway. 

I stepped in to the room to see a soiled violet cap, soiled in (B/C). The barer of the cloth was hunched foreword sobbing uncontrollably, by instinct I ran up to them to see Eridan unleashing violet tears from his eyes even worst than when he found Fef didnt feel the same way he did. I rested my hand on his shoulder causing him to look up, how he reacted shocked me. "WW-WWHAT! YOU ASSHOLE WWHY WWOULD YOU SO SOMETHING LIKE THAT?!?!"  The tears rushed out faster as he hid his face. I stood and backed up when he yelled, he never yells at me. Ever. He began glaring at me only to cause me to back up more, trip over something, and to brush pass a rope hanging from the ceiling. I looked at what I tripped over to be more shocked than before.

It was me. 

My lifeless body was under my legs, there was a little blood surrounding me as if cleaned up. I had deep gashes in my arms and legs as well as a long (B/S/C)-y bruise across my neck. I looked up, there was a noose hanging there. I began to cry as I looked back at Eridan who had stood and was pointing his science wand at me. "GET OUT!" I scrambled to me feet, careful of my own body.
"Eridan Listen-"
"I SAID GET OUT! OR ILL KILL YOU, YOU IMPERSONATOR!" The tears still havent stopped streaming down his face, only to make my stream faster. I ran. As fast as my legs would take me out of the hive as I noticed all the blood as a (B/C) and that his front was covered in blood; my blood.

The sky was no longer a pale blue but rather a (B/C) that matched the ocean, that matched the color of the liquid covering the house. The rest of everything seemed the same way, a I kept running never looking back aware. Aware he was following close on my tail. I took a sharp turn in to a dead end, knowing this had to end and it would soon anyway. I slowed my pace as I walked to the wall softly patting it like it was a new found companion. Sharp taps followed me in to the ally, I took a deep breath and turned. His arms was raised and resolve was defined, his resolve was death. 

My death.

SUDDENLY I AWOKE.

I leaned on the wall and slid down it, I hadnt had that dream since the last time I did that. I rubbed my upper arm and let out a shaky sigh. I continued to take deep breaths in the sitting position until I was calm. I hardly noticed a few people had awoken and walked into the kitchen. Drool worthy sense spilled out of the kitchen drawing me in to find FOOD. BREAKFAST FOOD! Feferi, Aradia, Kanaya, and Rose were cooking retarded amounts of foods for everyone who was there (like 20 people). 

"Damn this smells AMAZINGGG!!"
"Really? You think so!"
"YES~! TOTALLY!" 
"YAY!!" We continued our conversation as they cooked from time to time I would help. When we were done everyone was awake and hungry.

[Im horrible with fish puns im not even sorry]

We all ate and people slowly left but I still didnt know why the party was held. So I when to our hostess." Feferi why was this party held in the first place?" She looked surprised at the answer.
"You mean you dont remember?!"
"Whats there to remember?...Did I forget someone birthday and/or wriggerling day?!?!"
"Yeaahhhh! YOUR OWN!!" She was really excited. I stood there confused,
"Feferi whats to days date?"
"(B/D)!!" 
"OHMYCODITIS!" I shrugged and walked to the living room out of Sollux's ritespite block. I didnt really care, but why yesterday, why not today? Oh it doesnt really matter. When I entered the living room anyone who left was back and nobody spoke just silence. I tried to slink out but Jade noticed me. Damn her
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY/ WRIGGLING DAY (Y/N)!!!" They all yelled at once. I shifted uncomfortably, looking around for Eridan but he came up missing.
"Thank you guys." I smiled the most genuine smile I could. The dream was still bouncing in the back of my head, much to my dismay.
"You are going to be spending today with Eridan so we had a celebration yesterday!" I nodded. They sent me on my way, which was good as I need some alone time to think about the dream why it came up last night.

Even when I go to his hive it didnt make sense, I havent dont that in weeks. So why now. I shrugged it off and stopped thinking but began thinking about my facade and keeping it up. Although in comparison to yesterday Im very much happier! I dont really have to worry about it to much as it'll be genuine, as long as I dont think about my dream.... Taking a deep breath I knocked on the door. "Eridan, its me Im coming in!" I opened the door.

And what I saw...is just holy shit. There was wrapped gifts all in the fucking living room, like holy shit!! Theres was all kinds of colors, shapes and sizes. Theres was lot stepping coming from up stairs, Im assuming Eridans up there doing something so Im going to wait in the dinning room. Before long Eridan came down stairs and looked at me confused. "I wwould have thought you wwould havve divved right in and unrapped your gifts."
"I was thinking about it but decided Id rather do it with you there too!" he smiled.
"Then lets do this!" we went in to the living room and I began unwrapping most of them were little nicknacks I liked. But what Sollux got me surprised me: a set of duel-blade pocket knifes. I grinned silently and captaloged them with silent enthusiasm. The rest were set things for Eridan and I, mostly from Nepeta.

[SEVERAL HOURS LATER BUT NOT MANY]

Eridan and I have been watching movies, eating popcorn, and making fun of them. One moderately sad one had ended and I was triggered and quiet and I THINK HE KNOWS AND FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shifted in his arms and went to get up but was held down by his arms. "Wwhats wwrong?"  I swallowed.
"Nothings wwrong Eri!"
"Somefins  wwrong, (Y/N) you nevver use that nickname wwith me."
"Lies."
"No, tell me wwhats wwrong."
"I already said nofins wwrong!"
"Noww youre getting defensivve, somefin is definitely  wwrong. Im using my wwin from yesterday mornin: I want to knoww wwhats wwrong."
"You cant do that its passed 36 hours!"
"No, its only been 35."
"Fuck..."

And so I began, I told him everything. He held on to every word, listening intently.  It took a while but we got help, and I never imagined Id ever have such an awkward birthday. Alls well ends well I guess!
MY FIRST FINISHED STORY IN A WHILE AND ITS NOT TOTAL SHIT

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